Thanks Zen, I think that is a good idea. It might be enough for me for now to just write it out. I like that.

Interestingly, I have been thinking about this for a couple of days. I went to church this morning and guess what the message was? How to regain lost love. Starting with remembering the good, repenting (asking for forgiveness) and repeating (being ready to have to reinforce with actions or words. Coincidence smile?? No worries, I am not about to run off and do it cuz I heard it in church. The pastor seems great but a true DBer? Probably not smile

I am wondering when I will be able to go to church and not cry though! The feelings that overwhelm me there are love, happiness and safety... all from a person that said I didn't "need God, He probably doesn't exist, and I certainly don't need church" for years! Fortunately it is a huge auditorium and the lights are low. I've learned not to go with Kleenex.

The weekends are super tough. Knowing I am stuck here working while he is probably out having a great time sucks monkey butt. However, I have almost made it through another one. Celebrate the small victories!

I have no regrets changing all of my passwords. I am happy I did. The relief is awesome.

(Formerly blgp)
Me-35
H-33
Married 4 yrs
Together 9 yrs
"Bomb" 8/1/10
Separated 8/6/10
D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11

"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."