So, i think this has become more of a journal since i am the only one whoever posts on my thread anymore. But that's ok, i am going through a hard time and it is helpful to vent. So today i made things worse. I asked him if he had signed a year long lease for his apartment and he said yes. I said, " You said you didn't want to get a lease for a year b/c that would be stupid". He said that he had never said that. I told him that I was so tired of him lying and how was I supposed to settle things amicably with im if he continued to lie. I know I should never have even asked him the question to begin with, but things went downhill from there. I said " so are you planning on just separating or divorcing?" He said " Probably divorce, because I'm tired of all this". "What exactly are you tired of" I asked. He said, "You! You need to get over this already. It has been since June". Then he got and walked out just like he always does when ever i bring anything up. I know that I went against all of the 180 rules here, and I am so mad at myself for doing that. Just doing a 180 is so hard, when I am hurting so much over all of this. He is moving out in two days. I am hoping NC makes doing a 180 easier.
