So... been thinking it is time to change the password to my e-mail. Perhaps create a little mystery.
Pros: 1. He gets curious and needs to come talk to me. 2. He doesn't get to feel the attachment I know I felt when I could still read his.
Cons: 1. It was pure agony when I could read his... is it doing the same to him? 2. He may not see how far I have come. 3. It is no longer a tool I can use to "send him a message". There is an e-mail in my inbox from a friend that I am congratulating on getting his marriage back on track. I stayed vague and did not bash H but said I was proud of friend, not approaching their situation the way they did can otherwise lead to an affair and easy way out... I suspect H has read it, maybe not. It seems he is still trying to convince himself that I don't know. However, we haven't talked in a while so hard to say.
I know I talked about this the other day... just still struggling with it a little. In the end, it probably doesn't matter what I do, right?
(Formerly blgp) Me-35 H-33 Married 4 yrs Together 9 yrs "Bomb" 8/1/10 Separated 8/6/10 D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11
"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."
