Mila I understand the position you want to take, but honestly your h won't hear what you are trying to say. He can only hear what he thinks you are saying. If that makes sense.
The less you defend yourself or try to explain how much you care for him etc the better off you will be.
Sometime the best response is SILENCE! I know hard to do at times, but you might want to try that and see if it helps.
The more you say the more your h will continue to run.
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