Went out with my friend tontight. Had some fun. but nostly got depressed. all the women were already with guys and I wished I had my W with me too. Got home and feeling sorry for myself again. Wished my Dad was still alive and wished her dad was still alive too, as I think he would be on my side, but who knows. Too many drinks again and it leads me into despair. I will be fine. just cant help but feel that all is lost.
