H's MLC - he is still lost but I found myself

[Mila]

Thank you GAG, good idea...I'll ask my L for advice on this next time.

As you can see this is really on my mind today.

Here is a draft of my reply to him...looking for input

I’m so sorry that you feel this way.....I’m worried about you and care about you more then you care to know right now. I think that I’ve been more than reasonable in everything through out this ordeal. I've always tried to accommodate you and make things work. I haven’t made any requests accept this one...am I allowed one? Just one?

I know that you probably don’t care much about how I feel, or what I feel or why I feel it..... But I still have no idea where is this hatred and blame coming from.....When did I become the enemy and why?....this is ME....remember? You have known me for 37 years...was I ever vindictive towards anyone and would I purposefully try to hurt anyone?

I hope that you wrote this in anger and didn’t mean the things you said....because they really hurt. I have never used D against you, and never will. I’m not trying to hurt you and I’m not preventing you from seeing her. I told her that she could go to your place. I would have taken her on my way to my appointment, she said that she didn’t feel like doing. She wasn’t feeling sick anymore, because she went to her BF's house instead.

I’m so very sad if you really think the things you said, I don’t understand how you can think that about me ........