Happy, I am not trying to control him? I need to move forward with my life in some way, and needed to know where he was. I needed to choose a path, stay or go. Maybe I'm starting to have my own MLC, but I feel like there is a lot of life to live, and I'm stuck.

I am not pushing him back into the relationship. Since finding out about him dating, i said i just want to be friends. I told him that yesterday, becuase as Punkin truly predicted, a bit of anger set in.

He says there is currently no OW. And that the dates were him 'acting out'

Working on myself, I've become very independent now, and gained patience liike never before. Grown closer to friends and family. Learned things about how men and woman are completely different and have different needs. I've regained my old self back, no longer 'under his thumb'. I have learned that i am not as fragile as i thought and can probably withstand an atomic bomb.

I have understanding and forgiveness and patience like i never thought I had.

I have learned not to supress my needs for the sake of staying in a relationship.

I could probably fill a few pages... smile


M 31, H 34