Hi Di- Sorry I haven't been around. I've been crazy busy...with kids, work, house and my STBXH if something doesn't happen soon. It probably is a good thing I have been so busy or I would be pushing my H to $hit or get off the pot...again. Our D is still on track to be final next month. I have made a few comments to my H about it. He has responded with things like "I don't think about it" or "All it takes is for me to file something to stop it".
We have been getting all very well with a few little hiccups caused by my kids...they are teenagers after all and only his step kids...not a good mix with some in MLC! It makes it all so complicated and it makes me still question if I want him to come back. My H even told me he wouldn't have an issue moving back if the kids were gone. Now my D17 and S19 will be gone soon...my S still needs to get his academic act together but says he is working on it...if that happens, they both could be gone by the end of next summer. Regardless, my kids and I are a package deal...just like he was with his D who I helped raise and didn't run away when things got tough. So his attitude kind of annoys me but, that being said, I do see things getting better with my H. He and my D had a stupid little tiff the other night and my H did not run away like he would have in the past. I understand that his patience is somewhat limited but that is an improvement since he hasn't had any patience in the last 4 years.
My H and I had a little one night get away last weekend. We had a great time even though I can still see that my H has issues where he wants everything his way...However, I am learning to call him on things where as in the past, I would have internalized it. If I do call him on it, he does at least does acknowledge my point.
I do notice that my H is trying to take better care of himself for a change...getting exercise and eating better...a sign that the depression cloud is lifting.
So, as we get down to the wire, things should get interesting. I truly believe he wants the D less than I do...maybe in the end, the piece of paper doesn't mean that much to him but I am sure the relationship does. They both mean something to me too but I know will be okay with whatever happens.
