Poepad, I will look tomorrow for the book that you have recommended. I could use it right now! I know that my H and I speak different Love languages. Sometimes I think I am just beating my head against the wall with him. Yes - I know he loves me technically. Yes he is a much nicer person by far than he used to be but jeez wiz - would it KILL him to kiss me goodnight? I get so tired of chasing him for his affection. When we discuss it he tells me not to stop trying - that if I give up he will be upset. Well right now I think, "well booty rah tah" who cares if he is upset. HECK - I am upset.
He asked me tonight to make a list of what I wanted for Christmas - all I really want is my husband to act like my lover - not my roommate. I am just feeling pissy tonight. I feel like I am knocking myself out to meet all of his needs - physically and emotionally.
He does give to me - I have a nice home, a nice car, (its just a Camry! No big SUV in my garage!)and I have all the nice conveniences any woman could want - but what I really want is his physical affection.
I realize we have been married 21 years but so what? Does that mean we have to shrivel up and die? When I have complained about the lack of sex in our marriage he always says, "we're not in our 20's anymore" and yet he will say in a heart beat he doesn't feel old!
I am just annoyed tonight and griping about it here. What I have told him before is that I am not asking him for something that is distastful or disgusting. I am asking for something that he used to think was better than sliced bread. Where did it go and how can I get it back without damaging what we do have?
