I have been reading on this forum for a couple of month now, and just registered. I have read a lot of post and see a lot of people in the same situation as me. What I have gotten out of all this is that no matter what you do it is up to yourself to find a way to be happy about your own life. I to have been in a sex starved marrige for about 10 years now. I feel all the same emotions and have experienced most of the same situations, and quite frankly I am tired of being miserable.
We have been stuck in the same routine of having sex about once a month always on her terms and never really when I need it or want it. I am tired of feeling lonely and unwanted and feeling like there is something wrong with me. I am tired of the constant worry. I am tired of even thinking about and just long for happier days. I am better than this and deserve better this. I think I am a good Husband and father and do most of the right things. I have asked my wife is there something I am doing or not doing and she says no. I know I am just rambling and venting.
I have decided to break the cycle and tell her that I do not want this anymore. I am better than this and deserve better than this. Sex once a month on her terms does not fulfull my needs. I am expected and I think I do a good job of meeting her needs. At least that is what she tells me and my intent is to meet her needs because being in a loving marriage that is what two people do. When she is ready to work on this part of our marriage I will be here.
I am venting and rambling and sorry so thanks for listening. Any comments are welcom
