It's been a week since I told W I was staying in the house; things have been brutally cold, W is a good db'er. I've tried to give her space while GAL and taking care of our Ds. It's been hard. She rarely talks, isn't wearing her rings, doesn't look at me except when she wants to glare at me. I'm smiling, keeping a PMA, and trying my best not to crowd her. After the girls go to bed, I either work out at the Y, watch a show, or get some writing done on my novel. Last night I went out for swing dance lessons, which were really fun though I'm horrible.
Yesterday W was upset because I had told D8 that I wanted to take them to an equestrian show on Sat. My W assumed that she wasn't invited; I had talked to D8 first, before I had a chance to talk to W. So she was upset all night about it. I didn't argue with her, just said that she was invited, it was a family event. She didn't say much that I could validate/agree with. When I came home from dance lessons, she was in bed, having fallen asleep reading a book. I put her book away, and could tell she was pretending to be asleep.
I said "Can I talk to you?" and she said "Leave me alone." I said "I just wanted to say, you're absolutely right. I should have talked to you about the equestrian show before talking to D9 about it." She just rolled over and went to sleep.
Later that night, D8 woke up with a nightmare. W got out of bed before I did, and when I went to see what was happening, she snapped at me when explaining the nightmare, and then just glared at me. When she came back to bed, I said "Don't be rude to me like that, I was just worried about D8."
This morning, she called me for the first time in a week on my cell. She apologized for being rude to me last night. Said that she's been very angry and hurt; all the hurt from the last decade has come right back. That she's raw, and seeing me singing and happy hurts her more.
I said "I'm sorry that you're hurting so much. What can I do to help?"
She said, "You won't do what I need you to do" (meaning move out).
Then she said "I thought I was protected enough to not have my heart broken again, but I was wrong." She was at work, and couldn't talk any longer.
