No sleep last night. I tossed and turned all night. Not even sure why I stayed in bed except I didn't know where to go or what to do. Anxiety, panic, sadness, grief, guilt. Someday I won't feel so bad, right?
I'm now 3 months into my situation, the raw pain has passed, I still hurt badly but I've now found that I can go out and genuinely enjoy myself, concentrate on reading books, think about a future with or without my wife. Life has become bearable again as it will for you.
As for the lack of sleep, I find taking a really brisk walk about 3 hours before bedtime does the trick. A hot bath is also an excellent idea in the evening..
Hi SoA. Like Rob, I am 3 months out too and I can tell you I am a different person than even 6 weeks ago or less.
You must eat. I lived off of protein shakes and fruit in a cup for weeks, I was so nauseated. I also turned to vitamins. Again, the exercise was the most useful. I would fall asleep but wait up within a few hours with my heart pounding out of my chest. I would get up and run.
I read DR 3 times. I read 5 LL 2 times. The Dance of Intimacy for women was another good book. As well as Passionate Marriage. Books became my security blanket.
Keep yourself busy. My friend lives like a couple of 17 year old boys. I went over and cleaned her entire condo and did all of her laundry. She was thankful, I didn't have to look at all of things and feel sorry for myself and I felt good about myself helping a friend.
I hope some of this helps you. I never felt that kind of pain before and I hope my sharing will help ease yours at least a tiny bit.
(Formerly blgp) Me-35 H-33 Married 4 yrs Together 9 yrs "Bomb" 8/1/10 Separated 8/6/10 D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11
"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."
I read DR 3 times. I read 5 LL 2 times. The Dance of Intimacy for women was another good book. As well as Passionate Marriage. Books became my security blanket.
M39 W41 Two children WAW bomb dropped 11/7/09 Piecing Aug 10 - Nov 10 No longer piecing...Nov 10 Separation Jan 11 EA ends again Feb 11 Piecing attempt #2, Mar 11
