Always and Forever??????

[irishblessings]

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I don't disagree with your position here. Probably haven't internalized all of it and am spending more time acting "as if".

Why am I wasting time trying to "understand"? - Why am I leaning on the MLC diagnosis or whatever? Probably to avoid feeling so f'ng lonely. Not many things my H has done are "normal" to anything. 3 counselors admit this is not "typical" - When he turned 40 his world turned around - quit coaching, lost somewhat his "identity" as the "star". The porn entered his world two years later and then progressed to the addiction....NOTHING was off limits. Almost lost his job, almost arrested...

So...why did I stay? Sickness/Health - Better/Worse - you know the drill. I agree with you - he is DONE. He's not coming back. His is a one way trip. Maybe I'm struggling because of the illness.

Bottom line - I have to begin building my confidence in my own instincts about how to handle things. Prior to this happening, I felt strength in my intuition and my ability to handle difficult situations. I have been changed by this experience. I have lost much of my confidence. I have turned to MANY others for advice. I have to begin to develop my confidence again - be true to myself.

You have challenged me greatly and I am very grateful.