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[NotCrackingUp]

Thanks. But what can I do? there seems to be something in me, too close for me too see it properly, a part of my nature, that lets people know they can take me for granted and discount me. My H needed my calmness and gentleness for years, then it became something he exploited and rejected. Yet I don't believe in arm-wrestling in a relationship or with teens at school. Okay, you shout and punish like mad and get a silent classroom, but where then is trust, exchange? Same for the M. I always tried to compromise and often went along with what he wanted just for the sake of peace and harmony. thought I was being diplomatic and emotionally intelligent, but I became wallpaper. Now it feels like the same wallpaper at school.i really want to find a way forward, but don't want to and can't change my nature. The OW is a self-confident amazon who saw my H stray away from the herd and picked him off, no bother.She's moved on, I think, but he can't see me as W anymore.And I'm having trouble at school. It sems there's something radical I should know/do but I can't see what.
On top of that, a new colleague showed a tiny gleam of interest at the start of the year. I don't want a new R, but would like a date. I've just been friendly, no more. Now he's gone all cold and silent, doesn't speak to me any more. What signals can I be sending out?
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