I don't dismiss the advice. I'm smart, I have a master's degree. Intellectually I know exactly what I have to do. Emotionally, I'm having a tough time because I'm terrified. And yes, I make excuses because I just can't believe that someone who was so sweet, so considerate, can change like this and not be willing to work on a M with a person (me) who sacrificed everything for him, got him to where he is now, supported him, comforted him
