you deserve to be loved the way that is right for you
"love your neighbor as yourself"
you are responsible for your own happiness
decide who you are - what you believe, your values and morals then act accordingly
You can handle it. Look yourself in the mirror and say it out loud to yourself.
Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.