I've been with my husband 10 yrs, married 4. He cheated on me in the early stage of our relationship but generally everything has been great since then. The last year has been heartbreaking for me, watching my dad slowly and cruely dying of dementia and then being made redundant from my dream job of 8 years. I new I was depressed but thought I wad handling it ok. I spent a lot of time helping my mum with my dad, on reflection perhaps too much time. One evening I left my mum early to go back home to my husband, I had forgot my keys so went searching for him as he was out walking the dog. I saw him with another lady, doing nothing but talking. But when I approached him to ask him who she was his reaction told me everything. Since then he initally said he loved me and was sorry, but then made a complete u-turn and said he wanted divorce to try and make things work with this woman (also married). He says he has been unhappy for years and was lonely all those times I was at my mums. I feel like such an idiot, I know it was all my fault, the feeling is killing me. I have tried to get him to stay, initally I spent a few days with him trying to rekindle what we had, I thought it was working but then one conversation with her and he was back to asking for a divorce. Initally I moved out, but I have moved back home as I am desperate to fight for this. I am sleeping in the back bedroom, it's My first night back, and he has been out all evening, presumably with her. I know if I want this to work I need to act lke I'm fine with everything.....I guess???? What do I do??? I want to save my marriage so much, but I feel so weak and heart broken. I just want to know the right thing to do. Please can someone help me? Am I fighting a loosing battle?
