Darker days ahead

[25yearsmlc]

Much of your posts sound smart and healthy as if you are GAL and I hope that's all well and true.
But at times, your posts vary wildly in tone and mood, and alarm me. You dont' really respond to those comments I bring up.

For instance, it was YOU who said "I don't deserve to live" & you just left that out there. You also wrote that you think your h wants to kill you, or "take [you] out". Um, you forgot to address that today. You said you worry that he'll "slap a restraining order" on you OR that he'll think you're stalking him, and that is startling for most of us to read, even for here.

Elsewhere or another day, you'll describe behaviors that are hard for me to comprehend. You refused to greet him in the hall after he left, even though you chose to live in the same building! Why do either of those things?

You posted that you told your h 'let's try to do the Div without L's" once, as an effort at recon, but that didn't work, and that was that.

So I have Still no idea what actual efforts you put into the m once he made his feelings known. I also didn't know your m was mixed until now and that info is relevant. Why leave that stuff out? He's not lurking and there's nothing that would hurt your property division anyhow and the divorce is for irrecon differences so nothing you say here would matter in the UNlikely event he's somehow onto you being here and "sabataging' your DB efforts (another thing you posted and never elaborated upon).

You also said that "11 days is the longest without" any contact and that came AFTER he filed for divorce. When I commented on that being very very short, and NOT true DBing, you asked me where I got the idea that no contact was new for you. ALL my questions arose from your posts.

I got all the feedback from you and responded to it, asking for more info or details to be able to help. Then I get this partly evealing and confusing and partly vague answer. And something about whether you'll choose to respond to my post as if you are offended.

Hey, do what you want. But know that what you post here, and MAYBE what you put out to the world, is Not consistent. And it does alarm me at times.
So again, I hope you'll share ALL this with your IC instead of just your "grief" b/c there's a lot to your sitch that may have little to nothing, to do with your h.
I don't know. I can't know, b/c I don't have all the relevant facts.