-My husband and I were married 6.5 years ago. -He's in the Marine Corps. -I can't have children, lost both fallopian tubes. -I became very, very depressed. -I tried multiple therapists and various medications. -We live apart, Sunday evening through Friday morning due to a house we can't sell and a new job for him. This has just made my sadness and desperation worse.
I've been beating him up for 4 years, but just realized it now, after he said he may not be able to take this anymore.
That was last Friday. I remained calm (a first for me) and let him talk. Then we drank beer and played cards.
The next morning I asked him if he's sure, he said, "no, if I were sure, I would have done it by now."
We haven't spoken about it since. I have my head buried in the sand, I am afraid to ask questions because I am afraid of the answer.
I know I need to fix myself first, but I don't want to lose this wonderful man.
