Going night after night without sleep is dangerous. Be sure you tell your doctor everything. I understand about not wanting to rely upon meds, but sometime we have to do it. Doesn't mean you'll always have to take it, but for now the sleep and avoiding panic attacks is important.
I'm so glad you are sticking with the board. You are gaining a good group of supporters. Having found these friends on the DB board is a gift. I feel like some are old friends and don't know where I might have been without them. Some day you will paying it forward & helping newcomers. Until then, you soak up all the support & love that you can get, b/c it does help the healing process.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712
