Just getting out my thoughts: I feel relieved that I know what I'm up against, and that I'm not 'crazy' One of the reasons my H said he knew he had to D me was because I said that I thought he was having an A. He said if I couldn't see that there were serious problems and that's why he was leaving, then he knew he was making the right decision, because I couldn't look within myself and see that our R was problematic. Wow. A lot of crazy making going on here. I'm sitting here, just missed a phone call from him. I don't even want to talk to him. Who IS this person? I know the two courses of action I can take. I can let him go entirely, or turn around and dump him. Why can't I make a move? I am terrified. I don't want to lose my condo, my dogs, my financial security. Stupid stupid me for becoming so financially reliant on him. Argh!!!
