Guess I should say, this person treated her well, just like a daughter. She did so much for us, and maybe I expected a call, maybe something heartfelt....I don't know what I was expecting.
M-38 W-37 T-16,M-11 (Oct 30,1999) S-5 S-2 Wife left 7/4/2010
"When life hands you a lemon, say, 'Oh yeah, I like lemons! What else ya got?" — Henry Rollins
Maybe I am frustrated, vulnerable,angry, lonely...I just don't know. I wonder how much more can be thrown at me.
I take my credit for what failed in my marriage, I'm working on me. I can't change what happened, can't change her....just me.
I have accepted I will be divorced in a few months, I don't like it, but what can I do.
Why did I even think/hope my wife would have been here today, or the next few days when I really need someone? Why was I hoping for a call?
Did I really think she would come out of her fog?
I knew it was over, I was taking it one step at a time....this has just thrown me way back emotionally.
Why do I feel like the 1st week this happened?
There is no doubt how she feels, the death of the person who raised me, was always there for me, meant the world to me, didn't even get a flinch from her.
So here I am, awake, no sleep in sight, feeling sick....and still mourning the loss of my family.
I thought I was doing OK, guess not.
M-38 W-37 T-16,M-11 (Oct 30,1999) S-5 S-2 Wife left 7/4/2010
"When life hands you a lemon, say, 'Oh yeah, I like lemons! What else ya got?" — Henry Rollins
Haven't posted to your sitch yet, but also wanted to offer my thoughts and prayers for you and your family. I'm sure the person you lost is proud of the man you are being fathering your boys.
Me-53 W-49 D22,D18,D15 T-Since-12/2001 Married-9/2004 She Moved Out-5/28/2010 Piecing start-04/2011 Now-together Thread http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2079304
Haven't posted to your sitch yet, but also wanted to offer my thoughts and prayers for you and your family. I'm sure the person you lost is proud of the man you are being fathering your boys.
Thanks for the kind words. This hasn't been an easy 2 days, tossed ad turned all night, was just at the funeral home turning in information. Now I have to goto the mall, and attempt to buy a ladies dress, slippers, etc.
Again, don't know why I am feeling vulnerable today about my marriage, her actions speak volumes about how done she is.
M-38 W-37 T-16,M-11 (Oct 30,1999) S-5 S-2 Wife left 7/4/2010
"When life hands you a lemon, say, 'Oh yeah, I like lemons! What else ya got?" — Henry Rollins
There were a few times I thought maybe I gave in to easy, maybe I shouldn't have filed and waited a few more months, tried to save my family with patience.
Glad I only thought about it.
M-38 W-37 T-16,M-11 (Oct 30,1999) S-5 S-2 Wife left 7/4/2010
"When life hands you a lemon, say, 'Oh yeah, I like lemons! What else ya got?" — Henry Rollins
Well, done at the funeral home, now the wait until Saturday. Nothing at all from my wife, I got more support from people at work that I hardly ever deal with, than I got from her.
I hope I have enough strength to not hold onto this feeling too long.
M-38 W-37 T-16,M-11 (Oct 30,1999) S-5 S-2 Wife left 7/4/2010
"When life hands you a lemon, say, 'Oh yeah, I like lemons! What else ya got?" — Henry Rollins
Has anyone else have something happen where started to second guess themselves?
Seriously? If you don't second guess yourself every now and then when going through this stuff, you're not human, you're Vulcan.
That doesn't mean you spin from decision to decision like a Pinhead (err pinwheel), but it's perfectly normal to wonder if you're making the correct decisions especially since some of the strategies are so counter-intuitive.
