What have I learned? I learned that I lead by emotion and that is dangerous. I learned that I often didnt respect my wife and destroyed her self esteem. I am not owning her EA, that is hers to deal with and we will, but my CB led her to turn me off and tune in to another.
I learned I need to figure out to communicate. I need to really really work on that with her.
I learned that I should have enforced the boundry of no communication with members of the Opposite sex YEARS ago and should never have encouraged her PA 10 years ago.
I also learned I WONT share my wife with anyone.
and I learned this is more painful than anything I have ever faced.