Just journaling... Last night I read a lot of posts on here. I got a little freaked out about the ones regarding exposing as soon as possible and telling the FIL, MIL etc. because the sooner it is exposed the better. I have been wanting for some time to write his parents a letter just to thank them for everything. They really made a huge impact on my life and I truly love them. They haven't had the easiest M either. I didn't plan on putting any focus on H. I know it would crush his mom as she went through a similar thing with his dad but they are also a Latin family. They are very protective of one another. After reading the other posts, I still don't think it would be wise for me to put anything in there about H. He would deny it to them anyway and being in two different countries, us speaking different languages... who are they going to believe? My worry about the letter would be that it would be seen as pursuing so I haven't done it yet.
It is my day off today and I am having a hard time thinking of something other than the A. Whether it is with who I think it is or someone else. Whether there is anything in this world that would bring him out of it so he could see what he is throwing away. I had so many nightmares last night about the two of the running away together. It was awful.
So, obviously I need to come up with a plan to get rid of this line of thinking. I found a couple more books I would like to read so I think I will go get them. I may also do a little shopping... if I can get my thoughts under control, I need to work on my presentation and read a little.
Hope you are all having a good day.
(Formerly blgp) Me-35 H-33 Married 4 yrs Together 9 yrs "Bomb" 8/1/10 Separated 8/6/10 D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11
"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."
