thanks Sandi, I will let you know she came to our oldests sons volleyball game last night. Afterwards she asked if she could have an hour of my time when she drops the kids off at home.
Well we talked for that hour, just about life in general. We laughed and had a good time. At the end though it got serious and on to the marriage. I told her that I just cant talk about the marriage and us until she and the OM are finished. I asked her if her want to come home was for just the kids? She said no, it was for her and me, the kids are an added bonus.
This is where she gets weird, she says that its not what i think. They never talk about a relationship between them, she does whatever she wants. She says she has her own room, and she has no where else to go especially now that she is jobless. She wanted me to know that she doesnt want the divorce, and she understands how i feel and she is doing everything she can to show me that thisis what she wants. She had a job interview on monday, (i get the impression OM's dad arranged it for her) and she has a place lined up on a month to month basis as she wants to spend time with me. Not with me and the kids, but with me.
Sounded very positive to me, and to be honest she wanted a hug and i gave it to her and she kissed me. I have to say I did kiss back but cut it short. I looked her in her eyes and said, we fell in love at 15, again at 22, why not again at 33? I wont allow it to go any further as long as you have anything to do with OM. She said she loved me, hugged me again and whispered in my ear that she hears me and my comments arent wasted.
