I hear what you are saying. You are making progress and that matters. But when you mourn your loss, you focus only on the things you'll miss, naturally. But if you were truly honest AND OBJECTIVE, even if only for an hour, you'd see things a bit more clearly. You miss the scrabble and inside jokes as if losing your h means NONE of those things will remain. Untrue. And you gloss over the humiliating personal private intimate issues HE has and will continue to have. You won't. Those crappy moments won't be part of your life anymore and you know, that's a good thing. Who knows? You may someday, down the road, meet a man who won't ever put you through that.
Your h has other flaws too, so when you think about what you'll miss in him at least admit there are things you won't miss. That will help. Even if you only start with small things, like how you'll be able to watch more chick flicks, or whatever. And eventually you'll see that not all of your new life will suck. And it won't. You'll see. j-
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
