Great that I am getting some male perspective here, thanks!
Deep... my friend...'bout time you showed up again! Sheesh, how was I supposed to invite you to the biggest bash of the year? Don't worry... you'll get an invite!
Deep and Romeo, thank you for both confirming two important things for me: 1. this is my decision to make and no one can make it for me, and 2. I don't need to make it now.
Thank you also for validating why I feel the way I do. You know how we women like that kinda stuff!
Romeo... I pretty much said to him last night what you suggested. I asked him for space and time, to stop pressuring me and to focus on working on himself. He is falling apart and it is very unattractive. I need him to man up and handle things on his end and pull himself together. Right now there is no respect and no trust. And it really makes me feel suspicious of his intentions to want to reconcile. I know this is mindreading, but it really feels like I am being manipulated. Good ol' faithful, devoted Rocked will once again fix things and pick up all the pieces and make it all okay.
Nope. Not gonna happen. So yeah... space, time, keep focusing on me and the kids. I am enjoying my life right now.
Don't worry... you'll get an invite! 
