No sleep last night. I tossed and turned all night. Not even sure why I stayed in bed except I didn't know where to go or what to do. Anxiety, panic, sadness, grief, guilt. Someday I won't feel so bad, right?
Right, some day you won't feel the raw pain that you are dealing with right now. If I say nothing else to help you....I hope you will believe that much.
What you are experiencing from your actions is actually needed. If we didn't go through this horrible consequences and if the pain went away too fast.....then we might not stick to our resolve to never go down that path again.
You will get through this. You will always regret it. But, you will get to the place where you can grow and move forward.
If you are having panic attacks, then you need to see your doctor. I know how it feels. There were times that I thought I was going crazy. Maybe it is the guilt eating away, IDK, but there comes a point that you may need to seek help from your doctor. If your health begins to break then you could have serious problems all the way around.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
