Been catching up after being out a few days. You sound about ready to stop being a member of this Board and start being a Counselor. I believe you have it down. You sound strong and at peace. Hope I'm reaching that point myself.
Hi Eric, MHL, CW, SA & Punkin - thank you so much for your nice words Eric - I don't need to go back and re-read my posts....they are etched in my brain...unfortunately LOL...I remember the agony way too well. I'm truly in a better place now...I know that I turned a corner...finally MHL - you talked about this on your thread...this change is real...you feel it and I feel it...let's rejoin the living CW - wasn't that horoscope too much? GAG - thank you I feel strong and I must swing it right back at you...you are one strong cookie too SA - how are you hun?...have to go and catch up with your tread. Punkin - I'm at peace...I know that I'll be OK....and you will be too
And I agree that it feels like the roles have reversed...and although I really feel for him...I'm so happy that "Mila got her groove back" (thanks Eric)
Nothing new to report, really...just an observation that that he called on Saturday...wanted to come and rake leaves, told him that it's not convenient. On Sunday called again asking about D's whereabouts...not sure why he didn't call her. Both times I sounded cheerful & busy...which I was LOL and he sounded really down. I'm mentioning the calls because they are unusual. He would mostly communicate by email lately. Today total silence from him...not even one business email.
(((hugs to all)))
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
Our scheduled B meeting didn't happen today...H emailed me that he is not feeling well and was up all night with stomach pain...he used to have stomach ulcers and when he is under lots of stress it acts up again and he is in lots of pain. I replied that I'm sorry and that I hope that he will feel better soon.
Later I was looking over some invoices he gave me to process couple of days ago and there were mistakes in them....careless mistakes....like he can't concentrate on details or something....Had to call him and tell him that he needed to correct that....he was sounding so down on the phone and was apologizing for his "stupidity" as he put it, and for making me have to do more work because of it.
His depression is so obvious again. It was very obvious back in the beginning of the year...but when he finally got what he wanted (OW) he seemed better....now he is going down the hill again. Feel sorry for him....
It's a beautiful sunny day here....going out for a little power walk
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
Sounds like H's mood elevating drug (OW) isn't working anymore. Since the novelty has worn off, the dopamine high isn't working. Sounds like H has a serious depression problem.
Hi GAG - thank you...I've been thinking the same thing....but maybe he is still happy with the OW part...but depressed how he messed up everything else that was important to him...family...business. Anyway, whatever is fueling his depression....wouldn't want to be in his shoes right now.
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
I am so happy for the way things are turning around for you. With or without H, you have made it clear you are ready and able to get on with your life, and live a good one, at that.
I believe you are right about H's depression. The further away he gets, to broader the view of the mess he has made.
