What's da haps, man?

[ImprovedRomeo]

Yesterday I had to make some copies of our house docs and other pertinent info for my L and I felt the tears welling up in my eyes reading all that stuff, and each paper he's served me/sent me.

(((hugs))) yes, it sucks but also helps you see his true colors. Frankly if STBXW hadn't been this nasty to me I probably would've been stuck in the rut still idealizing her like I did for a long time.

I also found a journal I'd written after he confessed to having slept with someone else and it all came rushing back. I wish that would have never happened. It was like a dagger in my heart.

Don't look at the journals, pics etc yet. It's too new, too fresh of a wound. Put them all in a box and write 2013 on them- that's when you can look at them if you want to. You know sometimes you tell a doctor 'it hurts when I do this' and the doctor says 'don't do that then' well that applies here

I wish I could just schedule a final hearing for the D already but stbx wants to do all this back & forth w/ suing me re: mortgage.

And that day will come and it'll feel like a huge accomplishment when you get there because of all you will have endured to get there. Hang in there, live one day at a time and enjoy your life. You won't have these years back so try to do things for you!

Yes I remember your long list of women, and one of them was the neighbor, right? Did you ever see her again?

Yeah...well none of them really made my heart flutter like this other girl. Don't want what you got, can't have what you don't got But I don't really want to see anyone these days. Just want to heal and continue enjoying myself. If someone comes along great, if not no big deal my life is quite good the way it is.

Should I cut things off w/ HG til D is final? Thing is, I do find the time we spend together to be enjoyable. It is nice having someone to hang with after all this time.

You don't have to cut things off with HG if you enjoy spending time with him but take it slow, hang out in public places keep it more platonic for a bit with a little bit of responsible hugging and kissing thrown in- fogged up car windows at 2am on an empty street isn't it (ah the younger years I miss)

When's your court day?