lostandconfused6,thanks for the reply and the encouragement.
You are right about being thankfull for what I have now. If there is a silver lining in this disaster it is that my children and I are getting to know each other better. In the past they saw me as strong, but cold as steel.I rarely showed affection or emotion, working on this with my IC and it feels good to finally be open and let my shields down. My IC told me people with alcohol problems often cannot express their feelings/emotions easily or at all. Prayer helps ALOT!
