I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

Text from STBXW this morning asking why we didn't work on D8's homework over the weekend.

Truthfully, I forgot. It was very busy and she hasn't had homework yet on the weekend.

I texted back. "Very busy weekend. I forgot to check D8's backpack. Sorry."

My bad. Things should calm down now that I'm moved in. I got an email from STBXW on Tuesday nights. I'll have one or the other on Tuesdays until December 10 then they go back to the old schedule.

That's good. Starting Dec. 14, I work a lot of Tuesday nights so it was going to be difficult to keep it up.

Email from Match_35 apologizing again about last week. We're going to again try to do dinner this month. Really, last week was crazy.

Money worries. My attitude about life in general goes up and down based on my finances. I know my plan is good long term. It's just a struggle and when money is tight the bitterness kinds of rises. I try to remember though that I had the same feelings WITH STBXW because she was spending so recklessly.

I'd sit there and wonder why we couldn't save when the two of us made so much, but bill after bill after bill would roll in and I just had this helpless feeling.

Now I know my success depends only on me.