Something Good This Way Comes...

[ClingingToHope]

I remember my L asking me once why closure mattered. It just did at the time. Now, I think I know I'll never have closure. I think I know why she chose this path. I don't "know" if I'd done things differently if it would have made a difference. Depression is a tough thing to beat.

So the "why" doesn't matter and that's really hard to accept.

You follow my thread. You know I've gotten to the point where I see STBXW maybe once every couple of weeks. That's helped and hurt. It helps because there are vast stretches of time where she's almost dead to me. She doesn't factor into my daily decisions much at all. BUT when I do see or talk to her it really knocks me back and I wonder if I saw her more would I develop thicker skin.

It's tough either way.