Also, forgot to mention I got the "Getting Past Your Breakup" book by the Getting Past Your Past author. Made it up to chapter 4 so far. That is prob why I was emotional this weekend. It is such an obv point but one I seem to try to skate around: A fundamental part of getting past the breakup is acknowledging that the 'why' doesn't matter, and accepting that it IS over and will most likely never come back...
I mean, knowing it and knowing it, admitting it to my heart seem to be two different things for me...