John as always you see right into the middle of me! (Oh and Wii you may expect him at any/all of the establishments in Toronto, I have no reason to expect otherwise...)
I do want him in my life, but not as the man he is today. There was a time when this much contact would have been pleasing to me because I would have held hope that it was a chance to 'reconnect'. But I am wise enough to know that it is not the case, and it is not good for me even if he likes it this way. My main issue is just the kids, I want things to be 'right' for them and I try to hard to make sure they see us both together on occasion because they so want us to do things as a family, they tell me so all the time. Howewver doing so much together probably sets them up for disappointment as well.
I don't really see anything on the horizon that necessitates contact, so I am going to stay as silent as possible (re. Dan) and focus on me and the kids and our life.
(Oh and Wii you may expect him at any/all of the establishments in Toronto, I have no reason to expect otherwise...)
