My Situation - any thoughts or ideas

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I feel worse, not because of the email. I feel worse because I think I finely just let go and admitted it's over. I've realized that she has rejected me. I see her and I see the old her, not the woman that says she doesn't want to be married to me. I think of her and I think of the old version. I remember and it's the old one.

In the last 24 hours it's hit me that that version is gone and replaced by this new version that doesn't want to be married to me.

That's why I feel worse.