Mish, sorry to hear about Mom. It's hard when you reach out to others and you get a deaf ear. I think the idea of passing on makes people real squeamish, it reminds us of our own mortality. It's no excuse for not being there, just an explanation of sorts. Have you talked directly with your Pastor about getting some help? Some churches have friendly visitor/outreach groups and if yours doesn't he or she still may be able to kick some butt and get you some support from the church members, regardless of how often you do or don't attend. Hang in there and feel free to vent any time!
