When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[mishka422]

Things haven't improved with mom. According to the latest from her doctors, every test has come back negative. There is nothing they can specifically treat her for. Her white cell count is elevated,not as high as it was when she was admitted, but still far higher than normal. They are giving her broad spectrum IV antibiotics for it. Their only other explanation? Failure to thrive. In other words....she has given up.

I don't know how much longer they can keep her in the hospital. I have the number for a local in home hospice care that can most likely treat her. They treated my aunt until she died and they are a wonderful organization. Since she has end-stage renal failure she should qualify.

Donna, my local family consists of two cousins and their spouses and children (all of which are older teens to adults). Out of approximately 15 people, only Gabe and one cousin (my closest one) have gone to see her and even then, only twice. I made a point of telling my cousin yesterday that Marc keeps making comments about living on sandwiches and cereal and it's making him sick. She did offer to make some extra soup a couple of times this week to bring over so we had something better than sandwiches for dinner. That will be nice.

I have told the rest of them that I really could use some help with making sure she eats and just spending some time with her so she isn't alone, even if it's only for 30 minutes. Not one has shown up. Selfish. I really am tired of asking for help and being shot down or ignored. Do you see why I stopped bothering to ask a LONG time ago? My family is very close but not willing to help. What is that? I don't understand it. I bent over backwards to make sure they had help when my aunt was dying and my uncle died suddenly. They can't return that? It just further proves to me that everyone in my RL is really only out for themselves and the rest of the world be danged.

I've put it to my church group too. No takers. Nothing. My mom never was able to go to church here so no one knows her. Heck, hardly anyone at church knows me very well either. I can't spend time volunteering for things and joining groups because I'm taking care of my family. I guess it would be different if I had been able to because I see them jump through all sorts of hoops to help others.

No point in beating a dead horse. Just venting and FAR too tired to censor my feelings at the moment. I'm sitting at work with piles of stuff on my desk to work on but I can't concentrate on any of it. ICK! I'm going to have some pretty ticked off clients if I keep at that. Oh well.....again, I just don't have the energy to care!

Marc did decide last night that he wanted to hand out candy. My neighborhood is tough to gauge. Some years we get hordes of kids and other years we get 5-10. I stopped at the store on my way home from the hospital yesterday and bought 4 large bags of candy. We have 1/4 of one bag left over! That was a lot of kids!!!!!

Other than that, just getting through one day at a time and hoping for a better tomorrow. I figure if I keep that hope, it has to happen some time right? LOL