To start off, on Thursday right before S and I left, I got the mail with a letter from the L. It was a copy of the letter sent to H because he STILL has not gotten the information to the L. I am starting to really get mad about it. If he doesn't want to D, then he needs to tell me, otherwise just get it over with. We are NOT going to live married, but he get to go wherever he wants with OW and live separately. Her H may be ok with it, but I'm not.
In TN, everything was fun. S did a good job in the car. The only problem is that S still got up early so I had to get up. I stayed up late and still got up early, plus I didn't sleep well. I had a lot of dreams about H. Mostly because this is the first time that I have gone to TN without H. H has always come with me so it was very emotional. On the way home, I cried for 2 hours driving because I just feel alone. Everyone in my family has a significant other, and I am alone. I was the last of the older four to get married and now I am alone again. It just sucks!
The pastor at my brother's church in TN, and my SIL's grandpa, said some encouraging things to me, but it is still really hard. I was hoping the D would be over, not that I would be dating right away, but at least there would be some finality. Hard stuff.
Overall really it was a fun trip, but I am glad to be home and I will be going to be early tonight.
Me29 S3 H left 4/1/09 I file 8/2/10 Divorce final 5/17/11 1st http://www.tinyurl.com/25lhu52 2nd http://www.tinyurl.com/2c35ueg 3rd http://www.tinyurl.com/322yk89
