AFter a fabulous 10 days of NC/dark, my H comes over to trick or treat with S and I. Everything feels "normal". I get sucked into feeling like I want him back. Ugh. Things will prob change next week after family court mediation. He's been behaving well probably because this is coming up.
It sucks and reminds me that going dark/ NC is for me. The pain starts to eat away at me again when I"m around him, whether he is acting badly (creating fear/hurt) or well (creating relief/desire).
