Part of me would like to suggest that you go back and read your old threads BUT that may just depress you so don't. I can tell you from the outside looking in that it appears that Mila's "got her groove" back. That is great sweetie.
Life is short...keep enjoying it.
Your H will need to deal with all of this at some point. Now Mila - is YOUR time. YOU DECIDE what happens next. It is all you!
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans