H's MLC - he is still lost but I found myself

[Mila]

Thank you CW, Punkin, Eric, Kissak, Golfgirl & DU once again thank you all for your wonderful support and views...it's so comforting to come here ...lately I have been so busy, so I can't spend much time here

Eric, you are right there is certain peace in knowing that I have done everything that I possibly could...now I have "that's it buddy you are on your own" kind of attitude. I observe and comment on what he does, but I have no need to know as before. In the beginning of this ordeal I obsessed about what he did and looked for clues and signs in everything...now...NO.

Eric, I took you advice and showed concern...because that's what I would do for everyone. When I was sending a business email to him I added a line asking if he was OK. He called me right away after he received it, thanking me for being concerned and telling me that he had an anxiety/panic attack that same day and he thought that it was his heart, went to the doctor, had tests done...his heart is OK...but apparently the doctor told him that he can't go on like this...what ever that means...I didn't know what to say, so just told him to take care of himself and asked him if he thought about seeing a therapist again...he said yes.

Next day we were supposed to have B meeting, but he sent me an email saying that "we better not"....I think that he was worried that he would cry again.

Had dinner with my male friend that I've met months ago in a divorce support group, we have kept in touch by email and texts and this was the first time we went out just the two of us. It was very nice we talked and talked...obviously a lot about our MLCrs...he is a nice guy and likes me a lot, but we know that either of us is ready for a relationship...we are just friends.

Golfgirl I agree with you getting into a relationship at this stage would be way to premature.

Yesterday I went to a Halloween party with my GF...I actually dressed-up and it was fun...we finished the evening in a downtown jazz/RB club dancing...really fun...didn't do something like this for years. Can't move today...everything hurts from dancing LOL

Hope everyone is having a nice Halloween BOO