I very well know my own sitch I was basically a WAS for those months during the EA, which is the cornerstone of my current sitch. A marriage is a two-way partnership and when trust is broken it is difficult to repair the damage. Like all of us on this site we have all contributed to the deterioration of our M's it is just the WAS chose to vacate and we chose to stay.
I was never angry or hold any animosity toward my W. She did what she thought she needed to do to be happy. In fact if I were in her shoes and I was two years ago I would have done the same thing.
I thank my W for making a clean break rather than tease me with her indecision because it has helped me to detach. I have changed quite a bit since my sitch started. I am now at 195 lb when this started I weighed around 280/285 lb, I have taken acting classes, started rock climbing, spending more time with my sons and I generally have a great outlook on life. My new motto is Living Life and Loving It!...don't steal because I am thinking about trade marking it
Sure I still love my W she is a great, warm, loving individual and I miss her....you know I felt emotion when I just wrote that so it is not amnesia. But I do not sit around the house all day wondering what she is doing and what she is thinking and what I can do to get her back. She has her own free will and all I can do is to make me whole by being healthy and happy...my W does not effect me or my daily life.
If she would ever see me or communicate with me she would not recognize me. I am no longer angry...I stopped watching the 24 hrs news and talk radio, which she would watch and listen with me. That was one of my GAL activities and one that I was criticized for as well...
Although, I have a good reason to think that I will be D'd I consider where I am at emotionally a successful DB'er. I am Happy! Alone or with others! There is way too much life to take on and experience and way too short to sacrifice it for someone else...
