I struggled last week with the situation and my mindset. I also had the death of a friend/co-worker to deal with so there was no time to be still and breathe. It was awful.
I spoke with a non-DB'er friend of mine. He has learned what we strive for simply by talking with me (perhaps I should call him "Hutch")
And it just sort of gelled on me in the last 48 hours.