I understand where you are coming from Pensacola. You are trying to move on, but you still look for signs that the person who used to want to be with you is still there. It is extremely hard to watch a person who used to treat you with love, treat you this way. I keep trying to make sense of it as well, and looking for signs that he will "snap" out of it, while at the same time I know what I need to do is move on. You feel like you are part of some crazy nightmare.