It definitely helps. And FTR I agree with you. You use the term "prison" and to be honest I never really thought about it like that. I knew that I had somewhat "lost" myself in the marriage - but it never mattered to me because the life I had with H was greater than anything I could have dreamed of for myself. I didn't have role models of what it was supposed to look like - I just knew what it WASN'T supposed to look like. And what we had was different. Everyone saw us as best friends who supported each other and supported our kids in every way. But he is not happy and does not want this - period. I can't continuing taking the blame from him nor from myself. I want to enjoy life - responsibly - I want to enjoy being around other people as well as being alone. I want my kids to find comfort being with me.
On another positive note - my brother and his family from TX called me and said they were going to come here for Thanksgiving! I am SO excited!
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
