This is all a process. We all go through it in our own time, in our own way.
I found that sometimes I had to force myself to do certain things until they became easier over time.
It was difficult to be around my h at the beginning. Very difficult.
But I found that if I knew I was going to see him, I would be my best self. After all, I had nothing to be ashamed of, I had no reason to hide my face.
Now I understand that you dont want to spend the day with him, but, if you are going to see him somewhere, remember to be the person you aspire to be. After awhile, you will be that person.
So, when you see him at the games, be the strong, confident, worthy person you want to be. Act as if that is how you feel.
You are at your son's game. You are proud of him, you are happy to be there to support him, the game is fun. So, that's the focus. And that's what you want your h to see. That peron.
You can do this, IB. Sometimes you have to stop being in your head too much and just live your life the way you want to without regard to your sitch or your h.
