Finding My Way

[Mystik]

Took me awhile to fall asleep last night, even with taking my sleeping meds. My mind just kept cycling over and over about H and I and Whore and It. Now I can't even remember exactly what I was thinking, but I know that I was talking to God a lot last night, too.

Feeling ok so far today. Feeling confident that H will be back, just need to wait it out. It seems when I go without contact from H I am ok, but as soon as I hear from him or see him that goes right out the window and I'm missing him desperately. It would be so much easier if my heart had an off switch.