Going Dark, Gaining Strenght

[JinBK]

Hi everyone.

I just came back here to say I probably won't be posting here much more. I'm not going to say never again, but I think I'm closing the door on this one.

I have been on my own without H for nearly 2 months now. The more I look back, the more I work on things in therapy, the more I know I do not want him back. Talking to a lawyer about the D was not a move to "make it real" for him - it's what I want.

So, since I don't want to Bust my Divorce, I guess this isn't the place for me. I am not going to be giving any advice to anyone that isn't colored by that.

I am still going through crap. I am lonely at times. But I don't even miss him anymore. I miss the presence and the comfort, but not him.

I do not know if he has responded to the lawyer yet. I assume she emailed him, possibly called. I have to follow up on that one next week.

I have not spoken to him in, gosh, almost 3 weeks I think. A couple of texts over a checking account snafu. I don't suspect I will hear from him again unless he needs something from me.

So, thank you all for your support. Best of luck to each of you.