why the no contact if you still love him? What is the status of OW?
Would your marriage to him today, be the same as it was before? Are you saying you don't want the marriage at all OR you fear a reconciliation b/c you don't trust it? Ideally in your best dreams, would you have a recon AND a "restoration" of the marriage, meaning, a healthy m?
Or do you want to be done and if so, why? Do you know?
I don't take what you say personally b/c as you said, we don't know each other. You seem to want to vent, so vent.
But again, what is it that we can do to help you?
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016